And i quote "even though you seemed to understand the world and how screwed up it is, you still came across as rather positive and optimistic. But now, you're not that positive." Well mostly quoted anyway.


Firstly it's quite nice to hear it from someone else that you get the whole worldly shit and you were still bright and happy about it. It's one of those things you know for yourself, but it's still nice to hear it said out loud. So anyway, this is something quite related to what my previous first post was about.



I like to believe that my old positive attitude stemmed from my belief in people. When I say this, I don't mean people in general. I mean my belief in a specific person or persons. I mean people who don't live their lives with a direction and a mind which is the collective of the different pressures exerted on them, those who live their lives with a philosophy. The kind of people who don't just feel disappointment when something goes wrong, they feel sad.

Because fundamentally disappointment lies in comparison, sadness lies inward.

Either there are no such people left around me anymore, or I've stopped looking.